hmm..
after a levels no more toot looking me with hairband and spec siting in front of the table le..
=D

and i have became temp/ ful* time wu ye you ming..
=|

hmmm.. dunnoe is a good or a bad thing..

good thing..
as in i do not need to do the things i dread such as memorising those freaky equation formulas and evaluations... [it is a scary thing when you lose the motivation to do sth]
sometimes i do not understand why we have to do things that we do not like when we will all die in the end..

bad thing..
in people's perspective- spend mama's money nv work.. =|
my perspective- feel a bit kong xu..

before for a levels i anticipate for post a levels to arrive..

my mind was planning and thinking about the activities..
i even think that to lie on the bed, stare at the ceiling and do nothing is a blessing..
=X

hmm..
but somehow come to think of it now the feeling is like a bit weird not to do anything..
even gaming, shopping ... i wont even feel like doing after a while..
i am not really clear abt my future and dun really know wad i can do abt it other then to wait aimlessly for my results..


i realise that it is always when we want something, we tend feel that it is precious and we definitely have to get it..
but upon getting it,
it is yi shun jian de shuang kuai..
and later you will neglect it...
this may not be true for all but at least for me it is like that..

hmm..
i did think before if i cant get into anywhere.. wad am i goin to do..
at first i thought that there are very limited choices
but it is not quite true..
upon consulting tutors and mum..
they did suggest lotsa alternative routes for me.. [and obviously i fu yan myself that alternative routes aint that bad either.. since there are success stories..]
(one in a million, once in a lifetime~)
hmmm.. i have think abt the choices i have over and over again.. but they seems to fade away since it may not be that practical afterall..

one of them i think quite cool..
so i shall share it on my blog..

if i cant get into uni..

i can marry to bangladeshi..
i will probably be able to build a 3 storey bungalow at the sea side...
since the standard of living there is not very high..
there will not be vicious competitions..
no need to compete in aspects like education dressing behaviour $$
their pace of life will suit mine..
somemore i can eat my favourite thick curry with crispy prata everyday without worrying.. even if i become yang gui fei also nvm.. HEH HEH..
i can bring over my textbooks from primary school to secondary sch if i still possess them..
then i can do volunteery teaching at my free time to educate those who are unable to afford to go to sch..
though the standard of my teaching wont be very good, but at least have some basic education..
i can go seduce my fav smart friends to come over to teach JC stuff when they visit me[they will do it betta then me] as a form of volunteery work to increase their karma points.. =D
also, help to build basic 'infrastructure'
it will not be a chore if we think that it is fun.. =D

hmm.. but it may not be as optimistic as i pressume it may be..
i will probably be sweep away by high tides due to the low lands despite the 3 storey bungalow..
i will probably contract incurrable diseases due to poor sanitation..
[this is evaluation part.. i have learnt well =.=]

hmm..

santa, does utopia exist?

grass rock my socks! :)

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